Skipping class again today because still sick. My throat hurts every morning, every time I swallow, every time I cough. Hope I get better soon.
I really want to delete my Facebook.
I feel like it’s a huge waste of time. The thing is, I have so much on it. Like many contacts that I might not really be close to but need to talk to for college or other reasons. Church circles, college circles, high school circles. (I just deleted about 30+ ‘friends’ and they probably didn’t even notice. Heh). And a lot of my artworks and photos are there. It was sort of a little platform to exhibit my works without having to bring my drawings to school and say to every individual person ‘hey look at what I did’. They could access it in their own home and have a good look. Which many did. And I thought Facebook was very useful for that. But now it’s really very boring. Not much on it. I wish I wasn’t bound to it, but I am.
I recall being bound by Bebo when I was about 11, 12, 13. And that was just so cringeworthy. So embarrassing. I look back now and wonder why I even used the website. I should have been doing other things, right?
And then I compare that to now. Isn’t it the exact same thing? Instead of wasting more precious years on Facebook I should be doing things outside. Why is it now, I am so tied down by this invisible force called “connecting with friends” “socialising” “sharing”
Let’s think 5 years from now. And I’m 24.
10 years from now. 29. I don’t know if it’s even that important to keep updating everyone you know either briefly or closely about your every move. Your baby’s firsts, your husband and you on the beach. Weren’t these pictures once private?
Why is everyone so eager to share their life with everyone?
That’s my problem too. So much brainwashing. Do I have much to lose if I delete it? I felt regret when I deleted several photo albums earlier this year. I don’t even know why. I just felt bad. As if those events didn’t happen.
What am I even on about
Should I just deactivate it I wonder… But I can’t because of certain events coming up… Sigh what
I just wish it wasn’t there, at all. It’s basically everyone’s personal shrine to themselves and their own greatness. So much narcissism and I don’t want to be vain.
Okay, what I am going to do is, remove people from showing up in the newsfeed. And then follow some influential people who will motivate me to do good things. So I don’t get distracted by people’s social lives.
As for my own Facebook page I think I’ll remove a very large fraction of photos. I think I will have to do that for sanity sake. I have to move past this.